No weekly training recap from last week because I can sum it up real quick: 2 easy runs and a long 13 miler haha. I decided to give my shins a few days of extra rest because I felt like if I was going to do it, now is a good time as I gear up for the taper, right?
We ran 12 outside, then finished with 1 mile on the treadmill because it got dark. Like I said on Instagram…check out that elevation! It will be interested to run a flat race, since most of our training runs include hills, and any races we have ran in this area have all been hilly. The idea of a totally flat race (until the end) kinda makes me nervous!
Anyway, today I wanted to talk about a sort of revelation I had while I was on that 13 mile long run. I’ve written in the past about not feeling happy with my body, or wanting to lose weight…and I’m still in that mindset most days. I know I could lose 10-15 lbs, but also know during marathon training that is just not feasible.
When I look in the mirror I’m not 100% happy with what I see. In every day clothing, I am pulling at my shirt or wearing bigger shirts to hide my belly.
However, I realized the moment I put on my workout clothes, I feel confident. When I’m wearing my spandex shorts, I like the way my legs look in the mirror. I am reminded that these legs are strong and have carried me hundreds of miles.
I feel the most confident when my hair is up in a ponytail or brand and I am out there running. Despite my sweat dripping down my face and neck (remember I sweat A LOT?), my makeup-less face, etc. I feel strong and healthy. I love hearing my breathing and my steps on the pavement. I love making my body work hard…which is why I love track workouts so much.
I don’t know why I started thinking about this while running, but it just clicked. I may not be happy with how I look, BUT I am happy with my body’s abilities, and happy that I can run every day if I wanted to. Or lift, or whatever. I am the most happy and confident while running or at the gym.
My goals for when this marathon is over is to continue running, but also start lifting again. I do want to try to lose some weight, so that it CAN help my running (racing weight or whatever haha), but I am slowly getting to a place where as long as I’m healthy and able to run, that is my number 1 priority. Yes, sometimes it sucks not being able to wear clothes I want to wear because I feel self conscious, but it’s not longer bumming me out like it used to.
Long, random post – so thanks for reading! I want to get your thoughts as well.
When do you feel the most confident in yourself?
How has running (or exercising in general) changed your perceptions/life?
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