Today’s quote really resonates with me, especially with where I am at in marathon training:
I fear…not getting to the starting line because of my shin issues
I fear…not being able to run 26.2 miles
I fear…bonking around mile 18 again like I did in 2011
I fear…the Queensboro Bridge…because it’s a 1 mile long incline
I fear…being disappointed with my performance and time.
All of these things are going through my mind right now…and I know I should remain positive. Only 4 weeks left but I really, really want to do so much better in this race.
Of course I have a time goal, but honestly, I just don’t want to feel completely miserable like I did in 2011. I don’t want to have to basically walk the last 5 miles, and be angry when I cross the finish line. I want to be happy and celebrate with my mom…not end up in the medical tent.
But I have to let go of these fears! This quote is so true…and I experienced it first hand. When my mom and I ran the course 2 weeks ago, when we got to the Queensboro Bridge my heart rate went up. I was scared. This was where (in 2011) my downfall started…and I ended up having to walk part of the bridge, and then most of the rest of the way.
As we started running up it, I told myself to control my breathing and my heart rate would go down. Just take it one step at a time. People watch to make the time go by. Then…we made it over! I didn’t have to stop, and I felt fine most of the way.
That is an example of how fear holds you back, not a physical limitation. My legs and body could go up this bridge…but fear caused me to be afraid and have a mini anxiety attack. Now I just need to remember this instance when I am on the bridge in the actual race!
Whatever it is you do, when you find you are doubting yourself, ask yourself if it is just fear. Perhaps you do have a limitation, and you have to slowly work towards a goal. But sometimes it is your mind you need to overcome.
Do you have an example of how fear has held you back in the past?
Do you get nervous before a marathon even though you have already done one before? Help!
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